Week 30

Thursday I over slept and couldn't workout. Normally I still would have tried to do a 20 DVD or something but I had two kids to get ready and out the door for swim class by 8:30a. And it affects my weigh in by a couple pounds so that's why it matters. But with clothes on I was only 198.4. Had I worked out I probably would've been 196/197. I ended up working out Fri instead, but still couldn't weigh myself because family was visiting. I really don't feel comfortable weighing myself naked in the kitchen with other people in house.
Hopefully I'll see 195 or 196 this week.

Week 28 & 29

29: 198.0
28: 199.2

Man, I'm really slacking over here. I don't feel like I have much to say.
I did 4.33 miles yesterday (Sat, 8/4) and only walked the first 3 minutes.
I ordered an elastic waist size M skirt from Old Navy and it fits perfectly.
My first 5k is in 3 weeks.
I've lost 43# total.
I did a fast 1 mile run today in10:37. My normal pace is around 13:00.

Week 25, 26, 27

I've been MIA. Stating the obvious, I know!
Week 25: 202.5
Week 26: 204
Yep.
Pretty bad, right?
I did better this week. And reached a major milestone. I finally got into the 100s. It was probably high school the last time I was in the 100s.
This past weekend we bought a juicer, but I don't have it yet. It's our belated anniversary gift. Long term I want to include juices as meal replacement option. Maybe a 1 day juice cleanse once a month. Something I want to do soon though is a 7-10 day cleanse. Will I make it that long? I'm not sure. But I'm going to try. One day at a time. I need my body to crave fresh, good food. I did what I'm supposed to and went the Dr. I knew it wouldn't hurt to have some blood work done. Everything came back great except my thyroid is slightly out of range. It's not something she want to medicate, but its something to be mindful of.
We also bought a new scale since the one we had stopped working.

Week 24

(Sorry for the upside-down pic.)

As you can tell, I got my ass in gear this week. I temporarily dropped my calories down to about 1300. Some days it was closer to 1500. I'm paying a lot more attention to what my body wants. I started puting spinach in my breakfast smoothies again. I'm watching my portions more.(Umm, except for the 1/2 watermelon I ate on Mon. Nobody got fat eating too much watermelon though.)
Some NSVs....Tues morning I ran 22 min straight. I combined my 4th & 5th intervals. So what used to be my 4th, 5th & 6th intervals are now all one interval. I was telling myself as I was getting to the end of my 2nd interval that maybe on Sat I'd combine my 2nd & 3rd interval. But I got to the end of my 4th interval and I was just feeling it so I kept going. My 3.47 mile route took me 45:30 and I ran 37 min of that. My other NSV is that I officially promoted my size 12 jeans into the drawer. And hung up a pair of size 10 khakis on the curtain rod. (I hang my motivation size pant up on the curtain rod so that I see them when I go to hit snooze. Reminds me why I need to get my ass outta bed and workout.) My good problem to have is all my size 16 jean shorts (that I've saved for 10+ yrs for the when I can finally fit into them again) are too big. 16 is the smallest size I've saved. I'm guessing that I'm between a 12 & 14. I really don't want to buy more shorts. Hopefully I'll be smaller next summer and this summer is 1/2 over already. I just wouldn't get my moneys worth. Guess I'll make due with what I have. I have been buying lots of workout clothes and running gear. Maybe I'll do a separate post on that. I might be obsessed. Buying tops in size Large and bottoms in size Medium. (Fucking Medium!!!!!!) And I swear they aren't so tight that it looks my ass is eating my shorts. They pull right up and don't have to do a dance to squeeze into them. On my shopping trip I tried on a size Large jersey dress and it fit great. Probably the highlight of my week.
Great week for me.

Week 23

Yep. So let's get real. Now  I could blame this all on my in-laws being here this past weekend, but that wouldn't be right. To completely bore the shit out of you, I'm going to list what I ate. At least what I can remember. Remember? That's right. Had I been tracking like I'm supposed [NEED] to, I would be able to look it up.
Anyway...
Fri:
3-cheese Nachos from Qdoba
Sat:
Parmesan Crusted Chicken Caesar salad from Dave&Busters
Fish & Chips (1 breaded cod filet, small portion of fries, green beans)
Glass of wine
Brownie Batter FroYo with toppings
Sun:
Jimmy Johns #5 & reduced fat chips
2 very large slices of DQ Reeses blizzard cake
Mon:
DQ Crispy Chicken salad with Ranch and some fries
Another very large slice of blizzard cake
That's just the bad stuff. I also had my usual smoothies for breakfast. Some meals this week I had a protein bar and fruit for my meal.  My biggest issue this week, (can't believe I'm going to admit this) eating an entire tub of cookie dough. That's right. Thankfully I kept up my running or I would've gained more than 3#. I would feel so sick and miserable after the ice cream and cookie dough but I still kept eating it. It was like my brain took a time machine back to when I was 70# heavier. Am I self sabotaging? Was I using the excuse (read: reason to blame on someone I don't like ) of family visiting to eat like shit?
I'm pissed at myself. When I did WW, I'd gotten about 40# off and then I started falling off track. Gained back some weight. Then I got pregnant. I can't do that this time. I have to keep going. I still have a good 60 (65 now) pounds to lose.
I'm going to track my food again. I might cut my calories. I'm scared to cut too much because that can have the reverse affect. We said we would get a juicer for our anniversary so I need to look into those. I need to make an appointment with my Dr to make sure there aren't any concerns about me doing a juice fast. I'm talking 7-10 days. I think it would be so good for my mind. To stop focusing on food and just focus on what my body is telling me.
Hopefully the next time I see you I'll be back on track and a few pounds lighter.

Week 22

Yep. The same.
My non-scale victory this week is that I'm running 16 minutes straight within my 3.5 mile route. That's more than an entire mile. I've never jogged a mile in my life. It feels awesome! I've combined my 4th & 5th intervals together. Soon I might get brave enough to combine my 2nd & 3rd intervals. This girl inspired me to push myself. Seriously, if she can run a mile so can I. She did awesome! I don't know her. Never conversed with her before. But I am so proud of her.
My non-scale failure was allowing myself to eat an entire bag of PB M&Ms fully knowing I'd feel sick. Sometimes I feel like I'll never learn.

Week 21

That is one sexy foot tan, right?
Had a good week. I'm getting back to where I was with my runs. I still haven't my speed back from before I was sick, but back to getting all 6 intervals in. I'll get there soon.
I've created a cleaning schedule for myself. I do a pretty shitty job of keeping the house clean and I need to be better about. We don't have a hoarders situation going on here or anything. No bathtubs filled with cat shit or 2 year old gallon of milk in the fridge. We just procrasinate for a few weeks, then its "Oh shit, [family member] will be here next weekend. Need to start cleaning." I want my kids to grow up in a clean home like I did. My mom was single with 4 kids. I really don't have an excuse. I'm lazy. I use the kids as a crutch. If R is napping, I don't want to make noise doing _______ and risk waking her. I don't feel like carrying R upstairs to clean our master bedroom while G is napping. The excuses need to stop. I don't want to teach my kids to be lazy. And shit, if my ass is up cleaning that's just more calories I'm burning. Plus G likes to help me do stuff around the house. It takes longer but I know it'll be worth it. I've tried a cleaning schedule before , but its never stuck. Guess I can just keep trying.
Something I've been considering lately is seeing a therapist. I think the smart thing to do is work out my mental issues with food. Of course there's other things I could use help with, but that would be one of my bigger reasons to go. Not sure I can justify the cost yet. If there's anyone reading that has seen a therapist for losing weight, please chime in if it did or didn't help you.
That damn 199 on the scale is so close I can almost taste it. I will get there. Hopefully by the end of June.