Thursday, August 15, 2013

Week 60

a 2.4 lb loss

I've been doing pretty good eating wise the past 8 days or so. I ate like complete shit today though. Large nonfat caramel mocha for breakfast. Ate 2/3 12oz bag of peanut M%M while sitting in the pick-up lane at my son's school. Then couldn't even eat half of a beef taco salad from Hard.ees. This afternoon I finished off said earlier bag of peanut M%M. Dinner was Snyder's RF muliti-grain tortilla chips and salsa. Late night snack was leftover snow ice cream and 1/2 sleeve of thin mints. Yes. Like I said. Complete shit. And I feel like shit. I'll be back on track tomorrow. Well, other than the planned pizza for dinner.

What have I been eating when I'm not being a dumbass?
  • Fruit
  • Veggies
  • Protein (hard boiled eggs, minimal cheese, deli turkey, PB, chicken, protein shake for after workouts and greek yogurt)
I'm not a big meat eater. I've eliminated a lot of dairy. Don't think I've had any bread. I felt so fucking amazing! I was really hoping for a 194 but fingers crossed I will hit that this week.

Thursday, February 21, 2013

Week 57


I'm doing good. Focused. Paying more attention to how much sugar I'm eating.
Almost 2 weeks ago, I went to try on the bridesmaid dress that I have to wear in 11 weeks. Doesn't fit and I felt like my 280lb self in it. Has to change. I don't want to be worried with how fat I feel on my friends wedding day.

Thursday, January 31, 2013

Week 54


Yep. That happened.
I was listening to CurvyFitGirl's podcast the other day. They discuss how they got stuck at the 200 lb mark. She self-sabotaged. She was scared of crossing over. That's exactly what I'm doing. I'm working out 5 or 6 days a week. However, I want to eat like I'm PMSing every day. I find excuses to eat while the kids are napping. I eat mindless calories at night before bed.

I got the phone call today that my bridesmaid dress is in. I'm trying harder to stay focused.
This whole losing weight shit is hard. And everyone says maintenance is even harder. How the hell am I going to manage that? Something I've been thinking of is that I could be a binge eater. I know that I really need to see a therapist. There's no way I can afford it. It took a bit to talk my husband into affording the gym membership we got this fall. If I did therapy, I'd have to give up the gym. Of course I'm staying with the gym.

Well, I need to get off of here now and get my ass in bed. The pretzel crisps have already found me.

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Week 52

Sad thing is that is a big loss this week. Especially considering I've had a cold and had to takes days off from working out. Pretty sure I was around 209. Pathetic, right? I'm feeling more focused. The size 16 bridesmaid dress that I have to ne in by mid-May is helping.
I guess I haven't been very vocal around here because I haven't felt good about myself. I don't feel very inspirational.
It's been 1 full year since I've been on this journey. I started out at 241. 40 lbs lost in a year is decent. Better than nothing or even a gain. But I know I could have done better. Much better! I would love it if I lost another 40 lbs this year. But really my biggest concern right now is to get down to 174. Then I'll no longer be considered obese.

I did make 2 resolutions for 2013.
*Be better about getting the kids outside to be active. They are 3 & 1 so a little limited on what we can do. But I want being active to be a lifestyle for them and it has to start with me.
*Keep a clean home for my kids to grow up in. I am horrible about cleaning. I try and I try to make it a habit but it just never sticks. As the kids continue to get older I hope it'll get easier.

Thursday, December 20, 2012

Week 49

Weigh-in: 200.8

I've done a little better about tracking my food this week. Although I splurged on a piece of cake tonight that was leftover from my husbands work party.

Sunday, December 9, 2012

Week 47

This weeks weigh in....202.4
It was a 2lb loss from last week.j

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Week 40

Let me explain.
Thur, Fri, Sat were all normal days. I was still doing the 30DS dvd. Got up to day 6. Sat, I also ran and walked a ton at an event at my husband's work. Some of it wearing a 20 lb kid.
Then Sun happened and everything went to shit. That morning my stomach started cramping. I had been holding off working out until the kids napped but really started to not feel well and decided to nap while they did. Late that afternoon I woke with 101.2 temp. Still getting stomach cramps. They hurt. Bad enough to remind me what birthing a baby feels like. By Mon morning my temp had broke and was feeling better. But had zero appetite. I survived off water, saltine crackers and applesauce for a few days. I slowly got more of my appetite back. Mostly still getting milder stomach cramps after every time I eat. They are getting better each day. So I'm thinking my body went into starvation mode.
For the most part, I'm feeling back to normal today. I started day 1 of 30DS again yesterday. Retaking before pictures & measurements. Hopefully this week I can make a dent in this 200lb+ crap.