I've done a little better about tracking my food this week. Although I splurged on a piece of cake tonight that was leftover from my husbands work party.
Let me explain.
Thur, Fri, Sat were all normal days. I was still doing the 30DS dvd. Got up to day 6. Sat, I also ran and walked a ton at an event at my husband's work. Some of it wearing a 20 lb kid.
Then Sun happened and everything went to shit. That morning my stomach started cramping. I had been holding off working out until the kids napped but really started to not feel well and decided to nap while they did. Late that afternoon I woke with 101.2 temp. Still getting stomach cramps. They hurt. Bad enough to remind me what birthing a baby feels like. By Mon morning my temp had broke and was feeling better. But had zero appetite. I survived off water, saltine crackers and applesauce for a few days. I slowly got more of my appetite back. Mostly still getting milder stomach cramps after every time I eat. They are getting better each day. So I'm thinking my body went into starvation mode.
For the most part, I'm feeling back to normal today. I started day 1 of 30DS again yesterday. Retaking before pictures & measurements. Hopefully this week I can make a dent in this 200lb+ crap.
We've been home for just over a week from a week long vacation. On vaca I tried to eat in moderation. While we were traveling (we drove) our stops were at fast food places. High calorie, high fat, crap food. While we stayed with family, I did my best to watch my portions and choose the healthier option. However, 3 nights we drank. Not a lot to get drunk but 2/3 glasses. There was dessert in the house, but did try to eat a small portion. On the road, sometimes I'd get bored and would just snack. And my water intake was ridiculously pathetic. Didn't want to drink much on the road so we wouldn't have make extra pee stops. I mostly drank water and tea, but I know it was no where near the amount of ounces that I need. One thing I actually did right was that I got in 6 runs. I'm pretty proud of that.
Since we've been home, I struggled with getting back into wanting/craving healthy foods. And my motivation to workout was minimal. I wanted to run, but could not get my ass up in the morning. I'd see people running in my subdivision and be jealous that I couldnt be out there too.
Starting this past Monday, I am doing Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred DVD. Full 30 days. 10 days on each level.
Great week. I did my own version of a juice fast.
My normal fruit smoothie for breakfast. A juice for lunch & dinner. An afternoon snack was typically a protein bar.
Don't have much to say. I'm writing this 3 days after weigh in day. I've eaten horribly the past 4 days. Haven't worked out in 3 days. Monday is usually a rest day for me but I'm gonna do something. And the house has to be CLEAN for next weekend. So I'll be burning extra calories all week cleaning.
So I haven't posted in 3 weeks. I don't feel confident in my journey right now. I haven't been losing weight. I have eaten complete shit food. Yesterday alone I ate 5 (FIVE!!!) frosted rice krispy treats. That is ridiculous and I know better.
Today I did pretty good. A smoothie with soy milk for breakfast. For lunch a juice with carrots, kiwi, spinach, apples and grapes. Snack was a protein bar and then I cheated and had a few Colby flavored Cheezits. Dinner was another juice with zuccini, apples, spinach, grapes & kiwi.
Before I came up to bed I weighed the same as I did this morning. So that's a good sign.
I've had a rough week. Eating lots of crap food. Made an excuse to stop at T.arget over the weekend just to buy candy. So so bad. It needs to stop. I've been ridiculously lazy. Still doing my runs and workouts. After that I just feel like sitting on the couch all day. Not good. We're going to have a ton of people in our house next Sat for my daughter's Bday and I have zero motivation to start cleaning now. Even though we'd just just cleaned for last weekend. It's ridiculous.
Tomorrow morning I go pick up my first race package. I'm so excited! And nervous. Although, mostly just nervous about making sure I get up early enough and parking in downtown.
I've heard The Color Run is crowded so I'm not sure if I'll be able to keep my normal pace.
No nasty pic of my feet today. Let me explain. The first of our trip to Memphis I did great. I splurged but kept my calorie balance for the day. I drank only water even though they had at least 5 different kinds of pop (I was raised in KS. We say pop.) in the house. Sat morning I got out for a run at 7:30. Jogged about 25 min total (intervals) and did just over 3 miles. I had every intention to do the same Sun am. Then at 3am Sunday morning, R (the baby) woke up crying. I spent over 2 hrs trying to get her back to sleep. By 5:30, I was so tired, frustrated, exhausted, etc. I put her back in bed. And told Hubs it was his turn to deal with her. Not my proudest mommy moment. Honestly, thinking back I wasnt frustrated at her. It's because I knew I wouldn't get my Sun run in. Yes, early morning would be the only time I could. It was high 90s and Memphis humidity, an afternoon run was not gonna happen. That evening was out because we had plans. So I figured I'd just switch my workout day to Mon. (Mon & Fri are my off days) During the day Sun, R started to get a runny nose and slight fever. So then we knew it was because she wasn't feeling well. And I of course had mommy guilt for getting frustrated with her. Well, then R woke around 2am and slept with me until 6:30am. Those of you that haven't tried sleeping with an infant next to you, its not exactly what I'd call a restful sleep. She had to sleep at an incline also. So then my run wasn't going to happen again. We drove home Mon. (Sorry, this is getting long.)
Mon evening I started to not feel well. Tues am I took some nighttime cold medicine and J stayed home to watch the kids. Still feeling like crap Tues evening, I took more nighttime cold meds. I was going to try at least walking Wed morning, but the meds had me knocked out. Last nite I was feeling better so no meds. And had planned to get my ass outside even though there was rain in the forecast. Then I woke up a million times last night. Even had a bloody nose once. And I was too tired when my alarm went off at 5:20. And that my friends is [the very boring reason] why I haven't worked out since Sat.
I feel like the laziest sack of shit! I have never before kept an exercising routine for so long. I'm still amazed by how much I have changed these past few months. I am craving a good run. Hell, even a shitty run. I want to sweat! Not running, is really affecting my mood.
Now back to why I didn't weigh myself. Maybe I lost weight. Maybe I gained a lb or 2. Maybe I stayed the same. Since I'm already feeling crappy about myself ( being sick and not exercising), I don't want risk seeing a gain just have it throw me even more off track. If I see a gain, I know I'll give myself permission to eat crap food. And you all know what kind of cycle that would create.
I will get up tomorrow morning to run.
I will not let this be the end of my journey.
I will get back on track.
I will keep going.
I will meet my 2nd goal of getting into the 100s very soon.
I will be back next week with a loss!
If you remember, my goal was to get down to 200# or less by Memorial weekend. As you can see I didn't make it. It's okay though. I am really close.
Even though we will be visiting family, I still plan on doing my runs Sat & Sun morning. I'd like to bump my intervals up to at least 5 min but I'm going to just see how it goes. It's supposed to mid/high 90s where we're going. I have a path of just over 3 miles mapped out. (I'm typically doing 3.5 miles at home.)
I'm feeling a little nervous about eating while we're gone. My sister knows that I'm losing weight so I'm sure she'll be understanding. I am going to try to be relaxed about what I'm eating but also be extremely mindful of my portions. I have apples, pears, and oranges packed so I have healthy snack options.
*Posting from my phone so the picture may be upside-down