Thursday, February 23, 2012

week 6

226 (that's -15# total, -20 if I include the 5 I lost before I officially started tracking)
Where I'm struggling this week is my lack of sleep. I have to  get up early enough to be at least done working out before the kids wake. Then little one is keeping me up late and sometimes waking me in the middle of the night. Usually I only have to give her a paci and get back in bed but its still interrupted sleep. I've tried letting the hubs put her to bed so I can get in bed early but I just lay there forever trying to fall asleep. I just can't shut my mind off.
On the exercise front, I'm still moving. My plan was 20 min on the elliptical Tu, Th, Sa and strength W, Su and take M, F off. Now I'm thinking its not enough. Not because I want to see a bigger loss each week on the scale, but now my body just wants to move more.  Starting Saturday, I'm going to do the elliptical 5 days/wk and strength Sa & Su. I'm seeing my improvement on the elliptical. As pathetic as it is my first day on the elliptical, it took me 20 min to go 1.02 miles. Today I got up to 1.11 miles.

Friday, February 17, 2012

week 5

227.5 (yesterday)
I have not seen 220s on a scale in probably 10 years. I tried on a few jackets yesterday that I haven't worn since my 2nd year of college. And they fit. People I can see the bones in the back of my hands again. Its the little changes like that keep me going. I can see changes everywhere. Except for like my ears. I'm struggling though with that fact that my stupid fat roll on my belly is not going away as much as I'd like.  Its so frustrating to carry my weight in my stomach. I so wish I was one of those girls that carried my weight in my ass. Struggling a little more with the urge to just snack as much as I want to. Especially on the bag of Valentine PB m&ms that's in my pantry. They are my sons. I shouldn't be touching them. I've had a few here & there. The other day I grabbed a handful but I did count it in my calories.

Remember my pair of 16 jeans that I mentioned last week? They fit. I now have a pair of 14 capris hanging there now. My last day of 30DS was Tues. I lost 13.5#. And I only did levels 1 & 2. It took me 31 days because I wasn't feeling well 1 day. I'm thinking I'll wait til I hit a plateau before I start it up again. Next time I hope to do all 3 levels for ten days each. It was pretty hard on my knees and I even modified most of the jumping stuff. I was fearful that once the 30 days was up that I would stop working out. I'm glad I started out with 30DS because it got me in the habit of working out and wanting to workout. Took Wed off, but yesterday and today I did 20 min on the elliptical plus my usual crunches on the ball. Until it starts warming up outside my ass is staying inside. My ball also came with a workout dvd that I think I'll try to mix in with the elliptical. I'm going to start out exercising 5 days/wk and see how that goes.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

4 weeks

My jaw nearly hit the floor this morning when I stepped on the scale and saw 230. That's -4.5# for week 4 and 11 total. I can not believe today was day 25 of 30 Day Shred. I have never worked out this consecutively in my life. I love this high it gives me. Don't get me wrong, its still hard to get my ass outta bed in the morning. I actually have a pair of jeans that I can't quite fit into hanging so that when I turn to hit snooze I can see them. It's a great reminder. Once I'm up I am so excited to workout. There has been a few mornings that I haven't been able to workout first thing and it drove me crazy. I hated it. All I could think about was counting down the time until I could workout. I only have a few more days left of 30DS and I'm not sure what I want to do afterwards. I have contemplated a running program. One that gradually gets you to running for 30 min straight. Honestly though, I'm scared. Granted its been a warm winter, but we're still in mid-Feb. I just don't know if I'll find 3 days/wk to get outside to workout. I'm also just scared. Me? The person who has been overweight/obese my entire life wants to start running. It's not possible. Then I think of how good I feel and think of course I can become a runner as long as I slowly work myself into it. Maybe I'll mix it up and do the elliptical and a different workout DVD. At least until we get into April when I can get outside in the mornings.

I totally regret not taking before pics and measurements. Especially measurements since I can see such a difference in my muscle definition. I of course have a long ways to go but I can see such a difference. It makes me happy.

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Old Chapter

I should have started this about 22 days ago. Better late than never. Here goes...
Ever since 3rd grade, I have been overweight. Ever since college, I have been obese. I gained the Freshman 15, Sophomore 15 and so on. At my absolute worst is when I graduated college and moved in with my fiance (current hubs). Didn't find a job for months. Ate whatever I wanted. Wedding planning stress. I was working my way up to 3X/26W (approx 288#). Once I was settled at a new job and the wedding was over, I slowly started eating a little better. It wasn't until spring of 2008 that I started Weight Watchers with my supervisor/friend. Starting weight was 280.8#. Throughout that year I got down to 233# but once the holidays hit I lost my focus and motivation. I wasn't regularly working out so my weight loss was 98% from what I was eating. It slowly creeped back up. By the time I got pregnant with my son my weight was at 242#. I did well and only gained 32# with that pregnancy. He was born in November of 2009. By November 2010, I had managed to lose it all but 5#. Meaning my beginning pregnancy weight with my daughter was 247#. In August 2011 my ending pregnancy weight was 266#. Only gained 19# that pregnancy and since she weighed half of that it was pretty easy to lose the rest while breastfeeding. I casually watched what I ate and tried to weigh myself every Sunday. Didn't do great. Didn't do horrible...(9/11 246#, 9/18 243#, 9/25 244#, 10/23 248#, 10/30 245#, 1/10 240.5) See where I let the holidays get the best of me?
On January 12, 2012, I got more serious. I downloaded the Myfitnesspal app on my phone and arranged with a friend to make me accountable for my weight loss. Every day I log my calories on the app. Every Thursday morning I weigh myself and check in with my friend on what I've lost that week.
Starting weight on 1/12 was 241#. Even though I don't have it documented, I know I fluctuated at least 5# more than that since Christmas break. So any weight loss I do have, in my mind I had 5# to it. That following Sunday I got my space set up in the basement to workout, started the 30 Day Shred and here's what's happened since...1/19 237# and 1/26 237#. Which brings me to today, 234.5#. In 3 weeks, I've lost 6.5#. Not too bad. Today was day 18 of the 30 Day Shred. I had to skip one day recently since I wasn't feeling well but other than that those are consecutive days. The most dedicated I have been to exercising in my life. I'm feeling so much better about myself. I can see more of a difference in muscle gained than pounds lost.
There it is.