Thursday, March 29, 2012

Week 11

The camera on my phone is jacked up but you can still read the number. For the week I've had, a lb loss is pretty good. I think I'm mostly over my funk...ha. I typed that sentence earlier in the day and now that I'm finishing this up I just finished off a pkg of Ritz crackers. And they weren't included in my daily calories. Other than that I did much better today. I vowed to kick my own ass this weekend working out. I need to go get fitted for proper running shoes. My knees are starting to hurt pretty bad. I don't want to injure myself and lose everything I've gained. It's on my list of things to do this weekend. I am noticing an improvement in my walking to jogging ratio. Makes me happy and excited to see how far I can continue to push myself.

Monday, March 26, 2012

M&Ms are my enemy

I picked up a bag of plain Easter M&Ms for G. I've been able to do this before with little temptation, but today that was not the case. 8 servings per bag. I've eaten 7. I'm in a funk and need to snap out of it. On Sat I went on a search for a few tops. Maybe a pair of capris. I didnt need to replace my entire wardrobe. Just a few items to get me through til summer when I can hopefully buy Large size tops or size 14 bottoms. Even though 30# is a significant amount, I still look like a fat ass in clothes. Especially the trendy clothes that are out now. They just don't hide my stomach roll as much as I'd like. Or at all. So having a shitty day of trying on clothes is making me want to eat like shit. Making me not want to workout. Making me not want to count calories. It's so dumb. Dumb. Dumb. Dumb. I should be working my ass off even harder. Because of shitty timing on Sun, I didn't get to workout til that evening. That always throws me off when I have to exercise later in the day. I lose my drive as the day goes on. I am making myself get up before the ass crack of dawn and push myself hard on the elliptical. I really want to go out and walk/jog, but I'm not going out in the dark at 5a. That's just setting myself to get attacked by a dog. Not sure if I've told those stories. If anyone has advice on how to get out of a funk I will take it.

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Week 10

Holy donkey balls!!!!  [-25.5# total]

I cut back about 200 calories each day. Just for the week I'll change it back to normal tomorrow. I wasn't happy with the 1 lb loss last week. I know 1#  is better than nothing. I just wasn't happy with how I ate last weekend. I really did the best I could having family visiting. I have a good hold on food/calories when I'm home and its just us, but outside of that I'm still a little lost.
I worked out harder. I did Leslie Sansone's Deluxe Fat Burning Walk DVD twice [4 miles]. It's ridiculously cheesy. Filmed in the 90s if that gives you a clue. Got it from the library. It does make you sweat though. I find her pretty annoying and its hard to get past that [for me at least]. It was a little on the easy side for me, so its definitely for those just getting into exercising. I did really like that it was easy on my knees. Also did my walk/jog the other days.
I also had my low calorie pizza casserole for meals all week. 248 calories per serving [9 servings]. I swap out the ground beef for chopped onion and green & red peppers. Use 1 jar light Ragu and 1/2 pkg pepperonis. It is so good and so filling.

Also want to share this BMI calculator that I found on WebMD. I didn't like the results but I like how it personalizes the calculation. 36.99%, I still have 7% to go until I'm classified as 'overweight'.

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Week 9

A little late this week I was hoping for more than a 1# loss. I actually weighed myself Wed am and it was 220. Not sure what happened. Anyway a 1# lost is better than a 1# gained. I was really hoping to get out of the 220s. I'm more upset about that than only losing one #. Actually I probably gained 2# over the weekend with family visiting and having to eat-out.
I'm starting to get that feeling sorry for yourself b/c I can't eat as much as I want. I keep reminding myself that I want to get in those capris by the end of May. I don't want to have to text my friend that I gained for the week. I'm going to focus on my portion size. Probably the #2 reason why I'm so overweight, sorry obese. I'm never going to be skinny if I don't fix my portion control. And my kids are going to learn portion control from me. Of course I want to lose the weight for me, but my kids are a huge motivator. I want to be their example on how to be healthy and happy, not on how to be fat and miserable.

Tuesday, March 13, 2012


with the pictures
I know a weight loss blog isn't complete if there aren't progress pictures. I've been burned in the past with a family blog that I had for just family. For now, I'm hesitant to publicize my face. I want to share some body pics to have a point of reference.

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Week 8

Pretty good considering the Girl Scout Thin Mints found my mouth this week. 180 calories for 4 teeny tiny cookies. Ouch!
60* yesterday morning so I got to get outside. Which reminds me to see if I made it to 2 miles...2.07 miles. Took me about 30 min and I jogged 10 of those.
The topic of wedding dresses came up between my mom friends. I weighed 60+ lbs when we got married almost 6 years ago. So at about 11:30 last night I decided to try mine on. Its just been hanging out in the closet. Never got it cleaned. Zipped right up. Its huge in the boobie area. That's saying a lot because I have massive nursing boobies right now. I remember it being a struggle it get it zipped for fittings and that day. Made me sad I won't get to wear it again. I wish I could have a do-over and get to wear that same dress, just in a smaller size.
It'd been since the beginning of Jan since I jumped on the Wii Fit. I was hoping I was inching a little closer to the "overweight" category. Nope. Still a big ole'obese lady. Granted my BMI was 42+% and now its 38%. So there is improvement, its just a big reminder of how far I have yet to go.
All I want to do right now is chow down on an endless bag of tortilla chips with salsa and then ice cream. Instead I have 2 kids getting up from naps. Maybe I'll treat myself to a Fiber One bar with peanut butter.

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Week 7

Yesterday morning it was 56* when I got my ass out of bed. So I decided to walk outside. I actually talked myself into doing some [very slow] jogging. I didn't use a program or anything. Honestly, I picked a couple of cul de sacs in our subdivision and jogged in those. Cul de sac = less traffic = less people that will see me. Why should I be embarassed since I'm the one not sitting on my ass? Not sure. Total self esteem issues. It felt good though. I got to where I'd jog past where I'd said I was going to stop. I'm actually feeling a little sore today.
The hubs even complemented me the other day. Telling me that I just keep getting sexier. It was nice to hear, yes. But I just kinda blew it off. The ole' a guy will tell you anything just to get you into bed kind of thing. Then I got to thinking, this is the skinniest he has ever seen me. As of Feb 1st we've been together 9 years. I later told him Thank You and that I appreciated him taking the time to tell me, but I don't feel like I deserved it. Which is ridiculous. I'm the one that's doing all the work. Nobody else should get credit for it. Not sure if I've mentioned it, but I'm still (exclusively) pumping for my youngest. Breastfeeding burns more calories so maybe I feel like I'm cheating.

I've set a mini-goal for myself that I'm hoping I haven't set myself up for failure. Memorial weekend we'll be visiting my sister. My size 14 capris that I have hanging up. I want to fit in those by then. I'm thinking I'd have to lose 20% by then. That's another 31# to lose. What I experienced doing WW was that I'd go down a size every 10%. I haven't quite hit that yet (even including the extra 5# I add). So I just looked and Memorial weekend is 12 wks away. Maybe it just seemed closer b/c I'm looking forward to it. Now this sounds a little more doable. Pretty sure I'm going to hit a plateau b/w now and then. The reason I'm waiting until that weekend to go is b/c I will be done pumping by the beginning of May. Something else I'm looking forward too. I'd be naive to think that it won't have an affect on my weightloss.

I just used to figure how far I went yesterday...1.89 miles. Sweet.